So there’s this boy. I liked him. He liked me. It was so simple but I had to make it so complicated. He got away. He has a girl. He’s madly in love. I’m all alone. Now.
Yes, I know how it feels to hit rock bottom. I know how it feels to be heartbroken…not just by a guy but also by my so-called “best friends.” I know how it feels like to be tormented by disgusting rumors. I know how it feels like to feel alone and unwanted, but most of all I know how it feels to be talked down on after opening up to people. They had a way of underestimating depression just because they’ve never experienced it. I’m not talking about their temporary “bad day” emotions, I mean tormented by negative emotions for years. However, the obstacles I surpassed made me who I am today. It may be overrated to say, but I’m satisfied with myself. I became more considerate and sympathetic towards others. Because I know what it felt like to feel as if the whole world was against you. If anyone needs comfort, my arms are always open for you. No matter who you are.
(Source: kisssmytan)
Sometimes I want to drop everything in my life and give up. I’m just fed up with everything. Everything.
I don’t know whether or not I still like him…but I do know that there’s something about him I can’t let go. & I hate that I can’t.
I need a distraction. Something/someone to help me not focus on all my problems but rather on more important or interesting stuff.
After defending a person and they return the favor by humiliating you in front of others. I can’t. This is why I hate humanity sometimes.
If I could tell myself then what I know now…I wouldn’t. Only because I would miss out on the experiences that I’ve experienced. They may not all be great, but they were a huge part of my life some time and I wouldn’t want to erase those memories. Never.
